Posted by: Nadine | March 15, 2010

Well hello there…. I’ve been expecting you

I’ve had a most unwelcome visitor lately…. expected, but still very unwelcome.

It’s name is ANXIETY.

I’ve never been much of a risk-taker.  For as long as I can remember, I’ve played it pretty safe (those of you who have known me for a long time can attest to this).  Why?  The simple answer is for fear of screwing up.  I am also a HUGE perfectionist, and the thought of not so much me, but OTHER’s seeing me screw up really bothers me.

So in comes my new company.  While I’m totally excited that it’s been taking off quite well so far, the fact that I’ve put myself out there scares the bejesus out of me.  All sorts of questions have been running through my head…. What if people don’t like my stuff?  What if they say nasty things about it?  What if I can’t keep up with demand?  What if I overinvest and can’t pay my bills?  What if I become successful and people expect more from me than I can give?  What if, what if, what if…….

Despite trying REALLY REALLY hard to ignore these irritating little voices, they seem to be getting louder and louder.  My insomnia has SKYROCKETED to the point that I’m lucky to be getting three hours of sleep a night.  Seems as soon as I wake up, the inner banter starts, and anxiety ensues.  Yeesh….

I guess the simple solution is to just GET OVER IT.  We all know that you can’t please everyone, right?  Whether I succeed or not, my family and friends are still going to think I’m fabulous (right?  RIGHT????) so I’m just going to throw my hands up to the universe and let the negative attitude go.  I mean, I started this company so I would have something productive to do in my spare time that I really enjoyed doing…. selling my handiwork is just a perk.  If people don’t like my stuff, oh freaking well.  All I can do is my best.

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Responses

  1. Regardless how it all works out we think you are amazing…To stand up to the plate and do something you love is awesome..if only i had the kind of courage you do!

  2. omg Kris – thank you…. you have been one of my absolute biggest supporters in this and I can’t tell you what that means to me. Love ya.

    • by the way you almost made me cry – you shit!!!

  3. Do I ever hear you.. I usually don’t even get past the little baby first stages of trying anything out because I’m such a freaking coward. Hey remember that post I wrote kinda on this topic? http://magdalicious00.wordpress.com/2009/10/17/the-art-of-failure/

    Here is my advice… fuck it. What’s the worst that can happen. Everything goes to crap, you’ve been in touch situations before, back when you had your first kid trying to get by and deal as best you could. You lived through that and it’s never going to be that bad again.. you have a support network now.. so even if it all goes to crap you have your family and friends to be there for you.

    Let me know if you need any help with anything, even a phone call pep talk 🙂 if I’m able I’m on it!

  4. Thanks, I totally needed to hear that. Yeah I remember that post, again I could totally relate to it. I detest feeling like such a pansy…. so I’m jumping in with both feet. Cautiously though, I’ve learned when investing money into anything, impulse is your enemy!!!

  5. I know where you’re coming from, putting yourself out there takes alot. It does get easier, you just have to remember that you love what you are doing and take it one step at a time.

    • That’s what I keep trying to tell myself! I’m way to hung up on what other people think, and that’s something that’s going to have to stop!

  6. MORE.. bloggy bloggy


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