Posted by: Nadine | September 30, 2009

Get inspired and MAKE A CHANGE!!!

Those were the words stuck in my brain when I woke up at 1:30 this morning.  I haven’t been able to sleep since.  I wondered, what is that supposed to mean?  Did I have some wicked dream that I can’t remember?  Maybe…. but I’m taking the message to heart.

So what is it precisely that I need to change?  I’m not a complete trainwreck, but that doesn’t mean there isn’t some room for BIG improvements.  Oh my, where do I start….

I will put together a list of things I think I need to do to improve my quality of life.  I reserve the right to add and/or make changes to this list later.  After all, it’s the middle of the night and my brain is fuzzy.  Here goes!

1.  Get a new job.  The one I have is making me miserable.  I have to fight to get my paycheques and although almost the entire staff is delightful, I find myself feeling bitchy if they are not working as hard as I am.  I’m just a freaking cashier, for christ sake.

2.  Stop wasting so much time on Facebook.  I signed up so I could reconnect with old friends and keep in touch with everyone.  Now it has become an absolute haven for useless games, and I’m sucked right in.

3.  Spend more QUALITY time with the kids.  Meaning NOT in front of the TV.  I mean, why not bring back Family Game Night?  Go for walks.  Side note – must make time for special one on one activities with Haley.  She needs that extra attention.

4.  Spend time with Ryan, AGAIN not in front of the TV.  I swear that’s all we do, is watch TV. 

5.  Read more books.  Learn new things.  I think I’ll hit the library and just randomly pick some books.  Even if they look boring – after all, you can’t judge a book by it’s cover, right?

6.  Start exercising and eating properly again.  When I was on my health kick last winter, I was SUCCEEDING.  Why would I let that go?  The bottom line is, I’m sick of being fat, and I’m sick of making excuses for why I eat like an oinker and don’t use the elliptical trainer that is sitting right in my GD living room.  Too stressed?  No time?  Please.

7.  Get out and meet new people.  I have acquaintances here (as opposed those I know from back home), but not many people that I can call a real friend.  I think part of the problem (and notice I said “part”) is that I don’t know many people I actually have something in common with.  I’ve actually started that one, I’m now taking Willow to a couple of different playgroups so I can meet people I have something in common with – the great virtue of motherhood.  It’s a start.

8.  Be a better friend.  I know that I USED to be a loyal and readily available friend – a couple of people have taken serious advantage of that, and it soured my outlook on friendship in general.  You know how it is. you give and give and give and get feg-all back in return.  It’s time to let that go.  It’s okay to give of yourself, so long as you have the necessary boundaries in place.

9.   Blog more often.  I find myself having some pretty profound thoughts that never seem to make it onto my computer before they whither up and turn to dust.  These thoughts must be shared!

10.  Be responsible for my own success.  No one else can be.  If I want something, I’m just going to have to go get it.

11.  Lose the fear.  Fear serves no purpose except to stunt emotional and spiritual growth.  It’s held me back for as long as I can remember.  Without it, I know I can flourish.

12.  Bring back spirituality.  I “grew” more in my mid-20’s than I did in the rest of my lifetime.  Why?  Because I embraced spirituality.  I studied hypnotherapy, the art of meditation, Reiki, EFT, the chakra system, wholeheartedly, without judgement.  And you know what?  Through these mediums, I learned an awful lot about who I am and what my purpose really is.  The problem was, I let these things define me, and when the studies were over and I couldn’t find any like-minded people I could relate to, I let it all go and allowed the tedium of life to take back over.

I think that’s it for now.  I’m going to post my progress here.  See goal #9.


Responses

  1. yay! awesome post

  2. omg nadine..that is amazing…i can’t believe how much i can relate to that…i think..i may join you in your mission and we can do it together!

  3. I have more thoughts I’ve collected since this morning, I just have to wait until Willow is napping so I can give it my full attention.


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